Day 10 Symbols and Signs
Some days I feel nothing, my boys aren’t here with me and they didn’t really exist – to be fair those days are rare; they happen when I’m at my darkest lowest point when nothing seems to matter any more.
In truth my boys are all around me in everything I do and little things remind me of them – white feathers on the ground, robins popping up to say hello and butterflies flapping past busy with their day. There are other things, the wind blowing so hard and cold it gets to my bones, the sun warning my back and the rain pounding down like giant cold tears from above. The colour green reminds me of Rory (that hideous hat he wore!) and yellow ducks are for Henry as they were on the little gown he wore. I see little pretty green things and ducks all over the place and I smile, I remember.